     kaamil | Thursday, February 01, 2001 - 08:15 pm
Iam without mother today as i woke up in my little room. The family that raised me up, and whom i had so much attachment told me in no uncertain terms that they werent my real mother and father..Simply put it, they took me from the rubbish in one of mogadisho's luuqyadeeda..i felt sad and i didnt know how to put two words to put together..
My real mother might be there somewhere around this world..i am sad and i dont think my life will be the same again,,one day ,,everything i hoped for turned upside down,,
I dont even know where to start my search for my mother.. i have placed certain ads in one of Ethiopia news papers and kenyan papers to get her,,but now it seems it is just going on and on,,with no response ....
The family i grew up with are still my family but i feel empty deep down,,things arent anymore the way they were...and as i look ahead ,,i wonder if ever i could find my real mother and father,,whom i have never seen in my life...
I can imagine why my real mother left me,,and as i delve and imagine what she went through,,my body shudders,,,
But life has to go on and on,,and i keep that hope of meeting her one day as i will never give up my search,,,..
The worst part of it though is being called ""garac""by somalian brothers,,everytime i bypass, they are talking about me,,there goes the garac boy,,,..it saddens me too,,but i feel helpless and desperate,,,and dont know what to do ... |
| MAD MAC | Friday, February 02, 2001 - 01:00 am
Kaamil
Allow me to relay a story about the Prophet Mohammed. A woman came to him. She was pregnant and not married. The father had left. She asked what to do. He told her to come back after the baby was born. She did, and he told her to suckle him for three months and then come back. She did. In three months the baby was taken from her and she was killed for adultery. The baby was raised by another mother. The reason the mother was not killed when she was pregnant was because the baby was innocent. So are you. Garac - bastard, is an evil word with negative connotations. You have done nothing wrong. The mother and father that you know ARE you "real" parents. Your siblings are your "real" siblings. Blood bonds aren't nearly as important as people make them out to be. You have a family, one that, inspite of no birth right, took the time, energy and expense to raise you. People who judge you in a negative light because of this are small minded. They aren't worth getting excited over. You are the same guy you were two weeks ago. Be cool Abowe. Nothing has really changed, only your perception has changed. |
| CANO | Friday, February 02, 2001 - 05:11 am
TO KAAMIL, I'M SORRY BROTHER TO HEAR YOURE SAD STORY BUT MAD MAC SUMMARISED IT, I UNDERSTAND HOW SMALL MINEDED SOMALI PEOPLE CAN BE BUT EVENTHOUGH IT IS HARD IGNORE THEM. YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE AND PLEASE DON'T MAKE THE PARENTS THAT YOU'VE KNOWN ALLL YOURE LIFE FEEL GUILTY, YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU ARE TODAY IF IT WASN'T FOR THEM.
SORRY I CAN'T HELP ANYMORE BUT IF EVER YOU NEED TO TALK DON'T HESTITATE TO WRITE TO ME.
PLEASE WRITE BACK TO ME ASAP
MAY ALLAH MAKE YOURE PAIN MORE BEARABLE |
| Hodan | Friday, February 02, 2001 - 07:59 am
I am sorry for what happened to you bro...I feel the pain with you.....I wish I can do something for ya to easy the pain...but hey never give up...and one more thing...this is Aduun.....and no one will be here for the rest of their lives....so no matter what your mama did.....plz forgive her....and thank the pppl...who raised you as their son.......
hope this helps.
Hodan
P.S. I almost cried when I read your story. May Allah lead you to the right path. |
| Gogarad | Wednesday, February 07, 2001 - 08:58 am
bro..i agree with mad mac the family u are with right now are ur real family..so bro stop searching and thank the lord that u were not raised in the streets and u were with a loving family..so dear take it easy...and move on.. |
| Atlhotboy | Wednesday, February 07, 2001 - 10:28 am
Kaamil.
Reading your story brought tears to my eyes.
There is no way in this world that I can understand,
relate, or even come close to what u are going throught. The fact of the matter is, you are with a family that have raised, loved and took care of you for all of these years. Perhaps the reason the mother told you, she ain't your real mother is because she felt that it was a time where u can handle it. In other words, you are a grown man who is better able to handle it today than maybe few years back.
and like the sistas that was a head of me said, this is the world and we ain't gonna live here for the rest of our lives. So, look at your story and take the positive out of it and leave the negatives behind.
I mean, I know it is very hard to do so, but then if you were meant to meet your parents, then hopefully you will someday, but don't let this b the center of your life.
Focus on your goals in life and go on from there.
The only thing that I can do for you here is offer my best wishes and blessings for you, and may allah (swt) make it easier for you. |
| DuH | Wednesday, February 07, 2001 - 10:48 am
this is a mad up story.i DONT BELIEVE THIS SHIIT.DuH? |
| ABC | Wednesday, February 07, 2001 - 10:52 am
To Duh,,,,
leave the brother alone....he is experiencing the crisis of life,,,,,a tragedy indeed......
and one more thing....DUH! YOUR NAME SUITS YOU..I wonder who gave it you..... |
| RODA | Wednesday, February 07, 2001 - 02:08 pm
HI KAMIL.
I AM SORRY TO HEAR WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH BROTHER. I CAN NOT EVEN IMAGINE HOW U FEEL.
AS EVERYONE SAID THE FAMILY THAT RAISED ARE YOUR FAMILY. I HOPE THAT U FIND U REAL MOTHER.
AND NEVER MIND WHAT SOMALI IDIOTS SAY. IF THEY ARE SMART THEY WOULD DO SOMETHING USEFUL WITH THEIR LIVES INSTEAD OF INSULTING PPL. IF YOU HEAR THEM TALKING ABOUT YOU. TELL THEM THAT YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG AND THAT THEY ARE THE WRONG FOR INSULTING YOU.
ALLAH ISN'T GOING TO PUNISH YOU BUT HE WILL PUNISH THEM FOR JUDGING YOU.
YOU ARE WHAT ALLAH MADE YOU AND YOU CAN'T CHANGE THAT SO JUST BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE RIGHT AND THEY ARE WRONG.
DON'T GIVE UP LOOKING FOR YOUR REAL MOTHER AND DON'T LET ANYTHING CHANGE YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR FAMILY, CZ NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS THEY WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR FAMILY EVEN IF YOU FIND YOUR REAL PARENTS. |
| Basra | Wednesday, February 07, 2001 - 03:08 pm
Kaamil
I'm sorry to hear that.You can file lawsuit against your step-parents on the charges of emotional neglagence,misleading falsification and minor kidnap without legal merits of adoption.This is really distroughting. |
| kamal | Wednesday, February 07, 2001 - 03:12 pm
aaaaaaouuuuuuuch somalis of our time doing things like that... Have you considered setting up a Webpage and asking for assistance from any charities like Oxfam and red cross they operate every where and might be able to assist. This person i know found their father after 20 years... just by asking the red cross for help... can happen
Set up a lost and found peoples page... that will bring you gratification and strengthen your resolve... change your outlook, u can't achieve without a traget...
Don't read past the line below if you don't wanna get sick.
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I used to live near warabesalaan school when i was young, while out playing one day i saw something that looked human not much bigger then an average palm... i am certain it was a real baby in a dustpin... there are heart less amoungs us no kafir would do that, at least they bury their victims in the back yard... that is more descent... lighter of two evils in my eyes but allah[swt] will reward every one of our good and bad deeds... inshallah |
| homicider | Thursday, February 08, 2001 - 07:45 am
kill the bitch kill her |
| Cooler | Thursday, February 08, 2001 - 03:30 pm
Hello Kaamil
Don't worry brother that is not your fault.
another hand you can make Mother Basra she always fool around here. |
