Lonely at the top

[Aerosmith]

Salams all,

Earlier had a profound discussion with a cousin of mine over telephone and it moved me beyond anything. It made me feel lonely and drawback. Folks, those here with that untamed passion, untamed greed, meticulous, ego and obsession whatever it maybe, do you at times feel really lonely to the point of physical pain manifestations. I am having one of those moments now here, at work at midnight all by myself in a damned city. Let´s be honest standing all by myself facing another day and enduring another day isn´t an option alone. Mediocrity and complacency alone will never work, rather upping the ante to another notch becomes a compulsion for some. Kinda like alpha ego, primadonna thing & you have put on this attitude and
fake camouflage that you know is expected of you at work, life and you have this opportunity to do it everyday and stay ahead of the game. Has this had a negative backlash among colleagues, socalled friends and world folks in general, maybe even made you paranoid to the extent you percieve and is probably true that everyone is watching over every move of yours & waiting for you to slip!

I am sorry for being all emotional here, but walahi looking at it candidly now made me quite and morose. Its like I only developed didactic micromanaged lifestyle and geared towards one goal. No social life at all, besides few hobbies which ironically includes avoiding everyone and swimming all by myself. Heck I eat at fancy restaurants by myself. Do anyone of you even go to the extent of calling an escort to walk you through that boring cocktail luncheon or dinner and dont bother making some socalled ´friends´ not that I actually believe friendship exists at all. Am I happy? I would like to think so. Alhamdulilah, I am to a large extent on my track and have done wonderfully well for myself and I hope made my parents proud.

Why all this jargon, you see this cousin of mine is living the decent average lifestyle, married with a kid, 30 and looks happy and all. Heck dude is happy or atleast seems like it even though he´s been out of work for past 11 months. Am I this miserable? I think I would have lost it if I were out of work for a month let alone 11.

How far would you go to achieve your worldly goal? How often do you call home, parents, siblings? Do you like human beings in general and would you rather see all work and enslave for you?

What a shitty & phucked up midnight breakdown here.

[Warsan_Star_Muslimah]

Wasalaam,

A little thought came to my mind, of you being nothing more than internet cafe owner/worker, trying to break that cycle and make it into the big business world (nothing big in honesty (africa & M.East) - but big for a somali). Made me wanna burst out laughing, and wonder as to why you wasted all your time writing all of that.

Prehaps your a night security guard, and your just killing time

You have my sympathise though. Indeed it is a shitty midnight breakdown.

[SultanOrder]

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[Nabeela]

I hope this is not another stunt, remember I'm "going to jail for five years" stunt, I remember feeling so sad for him and praying for him, but it was all a big joke and I fell for it.

[SultanOrder]

I hope this is not another stunt, remember I'm "going to jail for five years" stunt, I remember feeling so sad for him and praying for him, but it was all a big joke and I fell for it.

You mean this might be a joke

[Nabeela]

I'm afraid it could be.

[Aerosmith]

lol@Warsan. Walahi you made my night.....hhahahahahah talk about cynicism. I like you already sxb. Good call mate
Perfect Order that was below the belt patronizing me with that line Insha Allah there will no man more content than you.
Nabeela - Nabeela sxb you´re still stuck on the past & walal in this post I do not expect anyone to sympathize or empathize with me rather seeking those in the same wave lenghth as me with the obsession and rigorous lifestyle. Those who take every challenge for face value and do not let the conventional system beat them. Winners make rules and losers follow them. And yes. I am no crook, or at least blue collar crook. Some in somnet do know me in real life and can prove to that.
Thanks guys

[SultanOrder]

How is that below the best

I was just hoping good things for you all you had to say is Amiin

[nomadicwarlord]

What are you? a ship captain? I bet its lonely out there at sea.

[Aerosmith]

PO no kidding dude. I sensed smug & pompousness on your writing there. Heck I can atleast enjoy my own pictures wearing one of my fall favorite suits here. Cheers and do enjoy away folks.

[HELWAA]

PO no kidding dude. I sensed smug & pompousness on your writing there. Heck I can atleast enjoy my own pictures wearing one of my fall favorite suits here. Cheers and do enjoy away folks.

Is that you....

Of all you wrote this was the saddest part

No social life at all, besides few hobbies which ironically includes avoiding everyone and swimming all by myself. Heck I eat at fancy restaurants by myself

Yacni ur whole life lacag baad dabo ordaysay si aad taajir oo noqotid...and you forgot the most important things in life like family, friends and love.If you die tonight who will remember you...who will pray for you..

Why all this jargon, you see this cousin of mine is living the decent average lifestyle, married with a kid, 30 and looks happy and all. Heck dude is happy or atleast seems like it even though he´s been out of work for past 11 months. Am I this miserable? I think I would have lost it if I were out of work for a month let alone 11.

You're looking down on ur cousin because he dont have a job but guess what he is more richer then you can ever be.

[Hyperactive]

miskeen. qof an Allah ko hirneen, malka qaroun hadad heysid wali qalbiga empty ha ahani waliga.

salat badso.

[Those who believed,in the Oneness of Allah - Islamic Monotheism, and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah: Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.]

[black velvet]

Aero, look at the bright side: if ever you change your mind and want to get hitched, broaden your social life, get yourself that baby, it's not too late for you.

[Aerosmith]

Yacni ur whole life lacag baad dabo ordaysay si aad taajir oo noqotid...and you forgot the most important things in life like family, friends and love.If you die tonight who will remember you...who will pray for you..

Sxb there is more to life than breeding kids. Family to some is immediate ones, parents, siblings and close ones only. Friendship does not exist and yes love is a fallacy for the gullible ones. As for death its inevitable and one shouldn´t be scared of it. Death is a free gift one will eventually receieve regardless of wether he outlived his disires, obsessions, habits, dreams etc. Most of all no one, at least the folks I know chase money. Money is a mere means to a lifestyle. Its the kill, sheer challenge of taking on the best that matters. Let me let you in on a little secret, if I die tonight many will be relieved and happy to see me gone. I don´t want to be remembered as the ´good´ guy. Wali dadkiinaan ma mashaqeen qof dhintay oo la cayo. Every douchebag comes to your defense when you hit the bucket. Who wants to be remembered that way. I´d rather be not remembered at all.

Aero, look at the bright side: if ever you change your mind and want to get hitched, broaden your social life, get yourself that baby, it's not too late for you.

I´d like to think I am still young for aroos but yes its never too late and rest assured the one will have to work for it to get me.

[black velvet]

will have to work for it to get me.

Are you talking about your future wife