I have been following this historical, 18th century character, an ancestor of the late princesses Diana through her letters. This woman is a marvel. Her strength is so powerful, it is palpable, jumping out of the books! Why I am interested in her? Well, she has this feel of being too wise, too smart, and too hilarious. Mostly just like my character. The same way you FORUM-ers are obsessed with me, I am obsessed with her. 
Here is the funny part, I have read thousand of letters and except quotes of letters she wrote. I have not seen a single letter where --happiness glows from her. It is always a serious tone, if not spewing advice or wise cautionary tales to her relatives, she is gossiping with her aristocrats, but in a serious, judgmental way.
Now, the ONLY time I caught her being remotely 'happy' is when she wrote to her friend telling her that one of her daughters bought a present for her other daughter who just heard a baby! She used a word to describe the gift: Magnificent.
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL I don't know why-- I am either clinically insane or just too happy in my own world. Reading that positive, glowing, and showy word from her, tells me a lot. It shows me that-- this poor unhappy, serious woman, let her guard down for a spark of a second to show her happiness.
The other time she let her guard down was when she described the son of a friend, who later ends up having an affair with one of her daughter: She described him as "He is very beautiful"! LOOOL This was a man in his early 20s, dark, rich full head hair, flowing down his forehead, matched with red rosey lips, fantastic long nose, and a from a good family birth! L LOOOOOOL
Anyway--that's all--I wanted to share! Have a great weekend!
this is so inappropriate
