So how do i protect myself

[FAH1223]

Everyone i will come clean, i hope you all don't judge me too harshly.


I went to college with five of my close friends, we were all good practicing somali muslim sisters and then we went to the same college and all lived in the same dorm and then slowly but surely we started to change, we started having sex, anal and virginal. We started doing drugs, weeds, heroin, shisha, and other shit. Then we started having sex from only one guy at a time to two guys at a time, from two guys at a time to three guys at one time. We went to parties where the only people there only wanted sex. We went to clubs that had people who were hermaphrodites, transsexuals, and other balaaayo. We experimented with other women and married men. In fact one of the girls i went there with had all her tuition paid by her "boyfriends" who were married man. We started going skinny dipping and every other weekend coming back home to our parents pretending to be good girls. We started buying vibators and even on four different occasions we dared each other to approach a guy in the part and offer to give him head right there and then. We got rejected alot but we finally did it. We went out clubbing almost every thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. We got drunk many times and brought guys back to our place from the club or the bar. We had sex at many bars that even if we want to get back in that bar they remember our faces. We had sex in our cars, in our garage, i remember even skipping one of my cousin's wedding to get drunk with my friends and fuck. I remember being waken up in different parks by total strangers asking me if i was alright. I remember sleeping in my car many times because i was too drunk and tired to go inside the apartment. The worst was when my mom would come up to the apartment we shared for a surprised visit. I remember once my mom was outside the door and we had a long night of doing drugs and f-king, one of the guys who we fucked got up up before us and heard the door,he woke us up and we found out it was my mom. She stood there knocking the door for a hour and we didn't open it because i didnt want my mom to find out about the 7 guys me and my friends brought home that night. It was uncomfortable but after she left we kicked them out and started hiding all the alcohol, drugs and condoms. We cleaned the whole house, washed our clothes and i called my mom after we were done and asked her why she called me so many time, when she said that she wanted to surprise me but i wasn't home i told her that i was at the hospital in a important meeting. We did alot of stupid things that i really regret now.

You trying way too hard to be a shock poster.

We don't believe you... you need more people.

[SomaliQueen123]

Everyone i will come clean, i hope you all don't judge me too harshly.


I went to college with five of my close friends, we were all good practicing somali muslim sisters and then we went to the same college and all lived in the same dorm and then slowly but surely we started to change, we started having sex, anal and virginal. We started doing drugs, weeds, heroin, shisha, and other shit. Then we started having sex from only one guy at a time to two guys at a time, from two guys at a time to three guys at one time. We went to parties where the only people there only wanted sex. We went to clubs that had people who were hermaphrodites, transsexuals, and other balaaayo. We experimented with other women and married men. In fact one of the girls i went there with had all her tuition paid by her "boyfriends" who were married man. We started going skinny dipping and every other weekend coming back home to our parents pretending to be good girls. We started buying vibators and even on four different occasions we dared each other to approach a guy in the part and offer to give him head right there and then. We got rejected alot but we finally did it. We went out clubbing almost every thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. We got drunk many times and brought guys back to our place from the club or the bar. We had sex at many bars that even if we want to get back in that bar they remember our faces. We had sex in our cars, in our garage, i remember even skipping one of my cousin's wedding to get drunk with my friends and fuck. I remember being waken up in different parks by total strangers asking me if i was alright. I remember sleeping in my car many times because i was too drunk and tired to go inside the apartment. The worst was when my mom would come up to the apartment we shared for a surprised visit. I remember once my mom was outside the door and we had a long night of doing drugs and f-king, one of the guys who we fucked got up up before us and heard the door,he woke us up and we found out it was my mom. She stood there knocking the door for a hour and we didn't open it because i didnt want my mom to find out about the 7 guys me and my friends brought home that night. It was uncomfortable but after she left we kicked them out and started hiding all the alcohol, drugs and condoms. We cleaned the whole house, washed our clothes and i called my mom after we were done and asked her why she called me so many time, when she said that she wanted to surprise me but i wasn't home i told her that i was at the hospital in a important meeting. We did alot of stupid things that i really regret now.

You trying way too hard to be a shock poster.

We don't believe you... you need more people.

What's a shock poster? And what do you mean i need more people? Why would i lie about what i am ashamed of? I am trying to get clean and need help, it doesn't matter if u believe me or not.

[melo]

The quran says that a fornicator should marry a fornicator.

[gemini_snake]

Everyone i will come clean, i hope you all don't judge me too harshly.


I went to college with five of my close friends, we were all good practicing somali muslim sisters and then we went to the same college and all lived in the same dorm and then slowly but surely we started to change, we started having sex, anal and virginal. We started doing drugs, weeds, heroin, shisha, and other shit. Then we started having sex from only one guy at a time to two guys at a time, from two guys at a time to three guys at one time. We went to parties where the only people there only wanted sex. We went to clubs that had people who were hermaphrodites, transsexuals, and other balaaayo. We experimented with other women and married men. In fact one of the girls i went there with had all her tuition paid by her "boyfriends" who were married man. We started going skinny dipping and every other weekend coming back home to our parents pretending to be good girls. We started buying vibators and even on four different occasions we dared each other to approach a guy in the part and offer to give him head right there and then. We got rejected alot but we finally did it. We went out clubbing almost every thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. We got drunk many times and brought guys back to our place from the club or the bar. We had sex at many bars that even if we want to get back in that bar they remember our faces. We had sex in our cars, in our garage, i remember even skipping one of my cousin's wedding to get drunk with my friends and fuck. I remember being waken up in different parks by total strangers asking me if i was alright. I remember sleeping in my car many times because i was too drunk and tired to go inside the apartment. The worst was when my mom would come up to the apartment we shared for a surprised visit. I remember once my mom was outside the door and we had a long night of doing drugs and f-king, one of the guys who we fucked got up up before us and heard the door,he woke us up and we found out it was my mom. She stood there knocking the door for a hour and we didn't open it because i didnt want my mom to find out about the 7 guys me and my friends brought home that night. It was uncomfortable but after she left we kicked them out and started hiding all the alcohol, drugs and condoms. We cleaned the whole house, washed our clothes and i called my mom after we were done and asked her why she called me so many time, when she said that she wanted to surprise me but i wasn't home i told her that i was at the hospital in a important meeting. We did alot of stupid things that i really regret now.

You trying way too hard to be a shock poster.

We don't believe you... you need more people.

poor innocent fah, believe it or not there are people who get up to everything he/she/it wrote. it's not shocking at all. you need to wake up before you end up making a girl like somaliqueen123 your wifey.

[SomaliQueen123]

^^^ there's even hope for you


May Allah guide you ... Ameen .
Should you have really told everyone on snet your past in so much detail?


EDIT: I'm giving you genuine advice so u better not be attention seeking

How can there be hope for me? I feel worthless walahi. I feel like i will never be forgiven by allah, i feel like i have failed my parents, they have supported me to get a education and i did get a college degree but along the way i have tarnished their good name, I feel like crying because i am close to my mom and if she found out it would kill her. I feel like traitor to my family and the only way i can keep this hidden is to never get married. I feel cheap and used. I used to have sex for fun now i just have sex so i can have another human being to hold me. I feel like killing myself for all the things i have done and i fear the day my secrets will come out. I still remember the day my aunt was disowned, my grandfather found out that she was having sex with her boyfriend, she wasn't married, he cursed her and when she left that was the first time i saw him cry. My own grandfather, i never want my father to go through that. But i have done so much that i feel like there is no way out. i want to be the girl who used to love going to to friday prayer, the one that used to say i want to be a macaalin one day. I am simply ashamed walalo. I am not not attention seeking but just a fellow sister who feels like by taking her life she can end the pain and embarrassment.

[Du$ty]

Everyone i will come clean, i hope you all don't judge me too harshly.


I went to college with five of my close friends, we were all good practicing somali muslim sisters and then we went to the same college and all lived in the same dorm and then slowly but surely we started to change, we started having sex, anal and virginal. We started doing drugs, weeds, heroin, shisha, and other shit. Then we started having sex from only one guy at a time to two guys at a time, from two guys at a time to three guys at one time. We went to parties where the only people there only wanted sex. We went to clubs that had people who were hermaphrodites, transsexuals, and other balaaayo. We experimented with other women and married men. In fact one of the girls i went there with had all her tuition paid by her "boyfriends" who were married man. We started going skinny dipping and every other weekend coming back home to our parents pretending to be good girls. We started buying vibators and even on four different occasions we dared each other to approach a guy in the part and offer to give him head right there and then. We got rejected alot but we finally did it. We went out clubbing almost every thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. We got drunk many times and brought guys back to our place from the club or the bar. We had sex at many bars that even if we want to get back in that bar they remember our faces. We had sex in our cars, in our garage, i remember even skipping one of my cousin's wedding to get drunk with my friends and fuck. I remember being waken up in different parks by total strangers asking me if i was alright. I remember sleeping in my car many times because i was too drunk and tired to go inside the apartment. The worst was when my mom would come up to the apartment we shared for a surprised visit. I remember once my mom was outside the door and we had a long night of doing drugs and f-king, one of the guys who we fucked got up up before us and heard the door,he woke us up and we found out it was my mom. She stood there knocking the door for a hour and we didn't open it because i didnt want my mom to find out about the 7 guys me and my friends brought home that night. It was uncomfortable but after she left we kicked them out and started hiding all the alcohol, drugs and condoms. We cleaned the whole house, washed our clothes and i called my mom after we were done and asked her why she called me so many time, when she said that she wanted to surprise me but i wasn't home i told her that i was at the hospital in a important meeting. We did alot of stupid things that i really regret now.

You trying way too hard to be a shock poster.

We don't believe you... you need more people.

BlackVelvet, See What I Mean

[gurey25]

Unless you have a child out of wedlock as a sign of your sins, no one cares what you got upto. I am sure we all know of girls who did not have the best of reputation, but are married, settled and happy. Time heals everything, even a broken hymen.

Hymen costs less then £4000 to repair these days.

Thats way too much, its about $3000 in the UAE or better yet $1500 in Thailand.

Allot of khaleeji girl go their on vacation and get it done, recovery is a couple of days..

[gurey25]

this is all fake, your story does not add up....
you could have made your story equally as shocking but believable..

[SomaliQueen123]

Unless you have a child out of wedlock as a sign of your sins, no one cares what you got upto. I am sure we all know of girls who did not have the best of reputation, but are married, settled and happy. Time heals everything, even a broken hymen.

Hymen costs less then £4000 to repair these days.

Thats way too much, its about $3000 in the UAE or better yet $1500 in Thailand.

Allot of khaleeji girl go their on vacation and get it done, recovery is a couple of days..

What are you guys talking about?

[SomaliQueen123]

this is all fake, your story does not add up....
you could have made your story equally as shocking but believable..

This is my story, my shame and embrassment, i don't care if you believe me, i want help thats all im looking for here.

[gemini_snake]

I used to have sex for fun now i just have sex so i can have another human being to hold me.

[gurey25]

this is all fake, your story does not add up....
you could have made your story equally as shocking but believable..

This is my story, my shame and embrassment, i don't care if you believe me, i want help thats all im looking for here.

Listen allah is alraxmaan alraxeeem .. infinitley merciful and compasionate just like he tells you straight up.
You should only be concerned about tawba.

As shocking as you might believe in this day and age, what you have been through is not that uncommon...

just my advice.. no need to solicit advice and sympathy online, you only need to face allah and everything will be fine...

[SomaliQueen123]

I used to have sex for fun now i just have sex so i can have another human being to hold me.

Its true, now i just want to feel human warmth, not like your mom hugs you or anything, but someone to tell me i am beautiful and im great and to cuddle with me after sex. I know, i am pathetic. I get it i get it.

[FAH1223]

poor innocent fah, believe it or not there are people who get up to everything he/she/it wrote. it's not shocking at all. you need to wake up before you end up making a girl like somaliqueen123 your wifey.

I know people who get crazy drunk and do drugs, so many people I went to high school with got up to that shid now... its COMMON

But This story is so forced and doesn't add up.

This poster is a multi nicker and just doing this to gain attention... and he/she is doing a good job because their threads are going to hit platinum status

[SomaliQueen123]

poor innocent fah, believe it or not there are people who get up to everything he/she/it wrote. it's not shocking at all. you need to wake up before you end up making a girl like somaliqueen123 your wifey.

I know people who get crazy drunk and do drugs, so many people I went to high school with got up to that shid now... its COMMON

But This story is so forced and doesn't add up.

This poster is a multi nicker and just doing this to gain attention... and he/she is doing a good job because their threads are going to hit platinum status

Tell me how this doesn't add up. I want to know. I have gone to college when i was 18years old, right now i am 25 years old. This is what i have been up to the last 7 years i was in college. I don't care if you don't believe me.