So how do i protect myself

[BlackVelvet]

Everyone i will come clean, i hope you all don't judge me too harshly.


I went to college with five of my close friends, we were all good practicing somali muslim sisters and then we went to the same college and all lived in the same dorm and then slowly but surely we started to change, we started having sex, anal and virginal. We started doing drugs, weeds, heroin, shisha, and other shit. Then we started having sex from only one guy at a time to two guys at a time, from two guys at a time to three guys at one time. We went to parties where the only people there only wanted sex. We went to clubs that had people who were hermaphrodites, transsexuals, and other balaaayo. We experimented with other women and married men. In fact one of the girls i went there with had all her tuition paid by her "boyfriends" who were married man. We started going skinny dipping and every other weekend coming back home to our parents pretending to be good girls. We started buying vibators and even on four different occasions we dared each other to approach a guy in the part and offer to give him head right there and then. We got rejected alot but we finally did it. We went out clubbing almost every thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. We got drunk many times and brought guys back to our place from the club or the bar. We had sex at many bars that even if we want to get back in that bar they remember our faces. We had sex in our cars, in our garage, i remember even skipping one of my cousin's wedding to get drunk with my friends and fuck. I remember being waken up in different parks by total strangers asking me if i was alright. I remember sleeping in my car many times because i was too drunk and tired to go inside the apartment. The worst was when my mom would come up to the apartment we shared for a surprised visit. I remember once my mom was outside the door and we had a long night of doing drugs and f-king, one of the guys who we fucked got up up before us and heard the door,he woke us up and we found out it was my mom. She stood there knocking the door for a hour and we didn't open it because i didnt want my mom to find out about the 7 guys me and my friends brought home that night. It was uncomfortable but after she left we kicked them out and started hiding all the alcohol, drugs and condoms. We cleaned the whole house, washed our clothes and i called my mom after we were done and asked her why she called me so many time, when she said that she wanted to surprise me but i wasn't home i told her that i was at the hospital in a important meeting. We did alot of stupid things that i really regret now.

You trying way too hard to be a shock poster.

We don't believe you... you need more people.

BlackVelvet, See What I Mean

Is this your experiment nick then? You should be thankful, you can name all the trannies you've been with and no one will bat an eyelid

[gemini_snake]

[dynamic]

The one thing that doesnt add up is the heroin part , iver never met or heard of a recreational and or occasional heroine user . Its one of the most if not the most addictive drug on the street . Also the detail and undertone of some of your accounts of situations seem exaggerated . If all that you have written earlier is true then you may aswell leave what ever country your in , because your past will come back to haunt you some time in your future.

[SomaliQueen123]

Is this your experiment nick then? You should be thankful, you can name all the trannies you've been with and no one will bat an eyelid

It used to be funny but now its just sad, almost 1/4 of the people i slept with i wouldn't remember because i was drunk at the time.

[gurey25]

Is this your experiment nick then? You should be thankful, you can name all the trannies you've been with and no one will bat an eyelid

It used to be funny but now its just sad, almost 1/4 of the people i slept with i wouldn't remember because i was drunk at the time.

ok in your 7 years of activity how many did you sleep with, approximatley?

[BlackVelvet]

Is this your experiment nick then? You should be thankful, you can name all the trannies you've been with and no one will bat an eyelid

It used to be funny but now its just sad, almost 1/4 of the people i slept with i wouldn't remember because i was drunk at the time.

At which point did it start to get sad?

[Complicated19]

First of all, get rid off bad influences like these friends you are talking about. If you are spending a lot of time with people who do things like drink , it's highly likely you are gonna do the same shit.

Secondly, don't let people chat shit to you saying that you can't change cos walahi EVERYONE was born with the ability to change. Ignore negative comments. Start having a positive mentality if you wanna change.

Thirdly, zina fucks you up trust me. It's normal to feel cheap and used cos you have basically given yourself to someone who doesn't give two shits about you. Sex should be reserved for marriage because marriage is special and so is sex ! Worthless sex will fuck you up. Boyfriend Iyo girlfriend kinda relationships should be avoided too. Also, the main reason for sex is to procreate which is best done in a marriage because it provides a loving and caring home for the child.

Fourtly, avoid alcohol at all costs ... Once you are intoxicated with alcohol , you will do all sorts of shit like have one night stands, get into dangerous situations etc.. Alcohol leads to more sins which makes it a major sin..... Ilahayow naga ilaali... Also , drinking too much fucks up ur liver and you can easily turn into an alcoholic and abuse it..like turning to drink when you are sad or depressed.

Drugs as well have their health effects as I'm sure you know. The higher the class, the more dangerous ... You need to speak to a health professional to help you get off drugs because again , it will fuck u up and u can become addicted . Also, it harms the body so it's haram .

Sixthly, your family don't need to know jack shit. Keep it to yourself .

Seventhly, remember that people come and go and that Allah is the ONLY constant in life! Therefore, I advice you to turn to him . Praying is the key and it is what separates us from the disbelievers. Take things one step at a time . I would start with cutting off people who you think are gonna drag you down.

Your mental health.., if you are having suicidal thoughts whatsoever, it's a sign of depression ..., shaydaanka Iska naar and perhaps go see your doc.


I hope I have helped

And remember , there's hope for everyone, including you!

[Complicated19]

You lot need to give her the benefit of the doubt !!!

[Du$ty]

BlackVelvet, See What I Mean

Is this your experiment nick then? You should be thankful, you can name all the trannies you've been with and no one will bat an eyelid

That's Not Me You Daft Cow

[FAH1223]

Tell me how this doesn't add up. I want to know. I have gone to college when i was 18years old, right now i am 25 years old. This is what i have been up to the last 7 years i was in college. I don't care if you don't believe me.

Never seen or heard occasional heroin users... that is BS right there

[BlackVelvet]

BlackVelvet, See What I Mean

Is this your experiment nick then? You should be thankful, you can name all the trannies you've been with and no one will bat an eyelid

That's Not Me You Daft Cow

It's not?

Oh well, I still think it takes a perverted mongrel to pretend to be a girl and come up with this rubbish. So that means the potential candidates are - you and ...just you for now

[SomaliQueen123]

The one thing that doesnt add up is the heroin part , iver never met or heard of a recreational and or occasional heroine user . Its one of the most if not the most addictive drug on the street . Also the detail and undertone of some of your accounts of situations seem exaggerated . If all that you have written earlier is true then you may aswell leave what ever country your in , because your past will come back to haunt you some time in your future.

I started using heroin during my senior year at college. I know how addictive it is. I did alot of drugs i am ashamed of doing now. I want to tell this to young somali sisters but i dont know how i can do that without exposing myself. I went through all the stage, popping pills to snorting them to the dope bag then shooting it up. I would use it once or twice a day but i ran out of money. My father kept asking me what i was doing with all the money he was giving me and i kept telling him i was paying off loans. It started only going once a day and then as months went on i started going from once or twice a day to 3 or 4 times a day. My mom and dad had no ideo what I was doing, i started to stop asking my dad for money to ask my mom for money. I told her i was struggling but it would all be over soon since i was going to graduate on may. I would call her and ask her for some money for gas or say something like i'm going to the movies or a islamic lecture or i was going to give zakat to the masjid and i needed some money and of course the nice mom that I had who never said no gave me money to go out. It really bad that i would steal stuff from my parents house and even steal stuff from my friends and they would steal stuff from me. You knew that i and my friends were big time smokers because we had black stains all over the house. The carpets the door my desk all had black stains. The first time i tried to stop was after my dad almost caught me, i needed it so i went to our garage, a few seconds later my dad was calling my name, i hid around one of our cars and he came in looked around and left i was really scared what would happen if he saw me but that didn't change my mind. I still did it. I only stopped because i was drunk with my friends, one of my friends passed me something, i dont even remember what it was, i remember putting it in my mouth. I remember blanking out and next day i called in sick and vomited every hour. i was sick and to top it all off every time i wanted to take a shit there was blood. I said to myself that is was all nothing. After 15 straight hours of this i started begging god, walahi, walahi i wont do anything more drugs please let me live. I went through high school and four years of college. If i died now all i could think of how my parents would cry and feel disappointed. How they have wasted four years of supporting me through college for only me to die. After 6 hours of crying and begging allah to let me live i got better, slowly though. I was still vomiting but less this time. I was still bleeding but less, and my fever went down. After 4 days i got better. Wallahi now i stay away from all types of drugs, except shisha. I still get drunk and have sex every other night but i stay away from it. It wasn't easy. But the though of death scares me beyond belief. I went back to my parents house that summer. My roommates still lived in the apartment, but i told my parents i wanted a break from 4 years of studying, my mom and me went back to somalia for a month. We came back and i felt i could breathe again. Those three months were hard. i wanted to scream at everyone, i didn't much, i slept alot. I felt like i was getting more and more depressed. Wallahi im not saying it was easy, i didn't just stop one day out of the blue. No, i always called my friend who supplied us and just when i wanted it my coffin would appear in my mind and i would drive off, after a couple of times he told me to fuck off. It was hard and if you dont believe me then u can go fuck yourself. I'm not telling u this so u can go do drugs or u can critize me im saying this because i went through alot of shit and i want u to learn from my mistakes.

[Nomand]

dont tell ur sins to anyone infact it is a sin to tell your sins to other people.

anyway dont trick a miskiin guy just go for a reformed somali guy.

[SomaliQueen123]

Is this your experiment nick then? You should be thankful, you can name all the trannies you've been with and no one will bat an eyelid

It used to be funny but now its just sad, almost 1/4 of the people i slept with i wouldn't remember because i was drunk at the time.

ok in your 7 years of activity how many did you sleep with, approximatley?

wallahi i lost count after the first 4 months. We had sex almost every thursday, friday, saturday and sunday. I wouldn't be surprised if the number is around a few hundreds. I did this for seven years.

[Du$ty]

It's not?

Oh well, I still think it takes a perverted mongrel to pretend to be a girl and come up with this rubbish. So that means the potential candidates are - you and ...just you for now

You Chicken Shit.. Dont Be Scared Of Cali Gaab