How The Hell Do People Move On?
Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2013 2:39 am
Salaams.
Do share whatever wisdom or experience you have interms of moving on. I'm strong but only on the outside and on the inside am falling apart. I don't seek help from anybody, I'm pretty busy with my work and caring for my little boy. I stay active and play sports, do activities when I have time with only my male mates. I avoid women altogether, if and when I get approached by one I scare them off. My Iman gets weak at times and I ask such questions like 'Ya Allah why me'? and then quickly I say Istaq furulah and remove those thoughts.
In conversations my mind wonders off, for the most part I seem lost, my work was suffering a year ago and somewhat still is to the point where my boss begged me to seek professional help and speak to someone. Everytime a family member or a friend attempts to speak to me or wants to have a chat I don't allow it. I'm humbled by the weight I'm quietly carrying around, all seems well on the outside and its impossible to notice that I'm barely hanging on because of the act I'm putting on but I'm emotionally spent.
All of that is nothing though. My happiness is my little boy, my greatest accomplishment and I'm thankful to Allah (swt) everyday but lately, its painful to be around him at times for the reason that I remember so much when I'm around him although its been nearly 2 years and I'm in constant pain. Maxaan Sameykaraa?
Its safe to say these things here, none of you know me.
btw, I'm not divorced, just incase your wondering.
Do share whatever wisdom or experience you have interms of moving on. I'm strong but only on the outside and on the inside am falling apart. I don't seek help from anybody, I'm pretty busy with my work and caring for my little boy. I stay active and play sports, do activities when I have time with only my male mates. I avoid women altogether, if and when I get approached by one I scare them off. My Iman gets weak at times and I ask such questions like 'Ya Allah why me'? and then quickly I say Istaq furulah and remove those thoughts.
In conversations my mind wonders off, for the most part I seem lost, my work was suffering a year ago and somewhat still is to the point where my boss begged me to seek professional help and speak to someone. Everytime a family member or a friend attempts to speak to me or wants to have a chat I don't allow it. I'm humbled by the weight I'm quietly carrying around, all seems well on the outside and its impossible to notice that I'm barely hanging on because of the act I'm putting on but I'm emotionally spent.
All of that is nothing though. My happiness is my little boy, my greatest accomplishment and I'm thankful to Allah (swt) everyday but lately, its painful to be around him at times for the reason that I remember so much when I'm around him although its been nearly 2 years and I'm in constant pain. Maxaan Sameykaraa?
Its safe to say these things here, none of you know me.
btw, I'm not divorced, just incase your wondering.
