Ok i am reading this Jane Austen Biography book by Carol Shields. The Biography is enticing & seductive & really flies me into the era of 18th century & top the living room of the Lady herself.I have read many Bio of hers --but this is a different one.This gave me an information that totally shocked me!! it started with the usual early life & nice, delicious anecdotes of the writers commentares. Very delicious i must say-- anyway.....
... Just now--a few minutes ago-- i finished reading the last paragraph of the book! I did expect it to be morbid & sombre since --i mean- l know-- the bipgrapher has got to tell me --Jane Austen is dead. A fact i cannot get over with but nonetheless i have relactuntly accepted it. 
Anyway--the last paragraph gave me a new information as to Jane Austens last words when she was dieying with Addison disease on july of 1817---- when asked what she would want to sooth her pain---The Novelist last words were....
'I want nothing but death--- oh pray for me---people'
Caudubilahi minasheeydan Rajiim!! Walaahi i need to start praying!!! We will die one day--so people PLEASE_----- perform your prayers.Also pray for Jane Austen please--despite that she is a gaal & will end up in hell because she was not a muslim but a very catholic Christian--- May God make an acception in this case-- Amiin'
But these words will undoubtly haunt me!!!
'I want nothing but death'then,,,....Pray for me'
.....Was she feeling the Wrath of Angel Israel who we are told in our beautiful Diin that takes upon the task of ripping of someones heart when they are in deaths door????? Istaqfurulaah!!!!
i am severely depressed! Lionheart --what do u take when you have your 'kind' of depression? You know the kind where --u want to kill yourself??? I dont want to kill myself ...but ....i feel an intense depression pain!!!
Alaaa Ba'aayeeeee Allah forgive our sins!!!