Anyway--to cut a long story SHORT-- i just heard from mommy--that one of our old neighbors has named her child after me.In my honor. My older brother & his wife also named their first born after me---seriously--this is becoming an epidemic now! I dont want the presure of being a surrogate mother to these offsprings ! (which i suspect is theiir design) I dont want to be a name sake person--it is a huge presure that i think i dont want to it upon me.Seriously---i am really--internally a horrible --very selfish person! I am not the sweet person i act like when i am with them. I dont want this so called honor! Its a curse! My mom was cracking up as she said it to me on the phone---obviously at my reaction---i am simply pissed off!!
Maybe i should really damn stop pretending i am sweet & Nice! Perhaps they will leave me alone!!!
What do u all think i should do?? Can someone reject someone naming them after you--yet at the same time in a nice way??I dont want to sound mean & u know ---rude.Seriously-- my # ONE goal of being seemingly Nice & Sweet--is not to be rude.They mistake my politeness for kindness.Maybe i should stop smiling alot too. I think i should turn into a moody--obnoxious--unthoughtful, mean--rude & perhaps even vicious--then & only then--people will LEAVE me alone.
But.......
What will my siblings be jealous of??? I enjoy when they have that jealousy look on their face when telling me who said Helloo & who name a baby after me. I want that feeling--always to be there. So i am thinking of a compromising situation--any ideas peeps????
